Monday, August 29, 2011

'Twas the Night Before Kindergarten

It's 2:30 in the morning and I can't stop thinking about this:


I was doing so good holding it together ( and by holding it together I mean begging Easton not to go to school and not sleeping for the past 4 nights) until now, and it just seems like it's impossible that he could be starting school. I know it's only kindergarten, and I know it's only half day, and I know he'll be fine...but still. Steve and I went back and forth on our decision to send E to school this year for months (he'll be the very youngest), and now, the night before it starts I can't help but doubt myself about it. He's my little buddy who has been with me every day since he was born and from now until he leaves my house and after, he'll be going to school. It's just weird.

I'm trying not to be too dramatic about the whole thing, but clearly I'm one of those moms who has a hard time letting go. And hopefully by having a meltdown in the middle of the night, I'll be fine when, in 6 hours it's actually time to send him off. It helps that he is so dang excited and doesn't seem scared at all. As a mom that makes me feel pretty good. I want him to be confident and I'm glad he loves school. He has made it very clear that he's not going to miss me at all. I guess that's a good thing?

Good luck to the rest of you moms dealing with the same thing...hopefully you have it a little more together than I do.

21 comments:

greg&sarina said...

best of luck em! luckily since we live in the middle-of-nowhere we get to homeschool :)
i will be thinking about you today... i definitely want to hear how it goes!! its great that he is excited - you guys have done a awesome job with him so far :) keep us posted! and hopefully you can get some rest soon! i am up with john a lot a night, so you can always text if you need mommy support :)

{lizzythebotanist} said...

pull him out! nash needs a friend! just kidding-you'll both do great. good luck!

Kara said...

Ok, now I have a huge knot in my throat! Thanks! J/K he'll do great and you should be very proud that he is confident and ready, that's all because you're such a great mom and have taught him well and prepared him!

Chad and Jessica said...

OH my goodness. A few months ago I was picturing that day in my head for Jet and I started crying...lol.

That pic of you two is priceless.

It will all work out. At least they start with half days! It's wonderful that he's so excited about it. He's going to love it!

Christi said...

He's so tiny in that picture. I am so glad that he is going this year and is Reagan's class. I can't believe that they are actually going. I tried not to think about it too much. You know they are going to love it!!! I love that pic!

Sara said...

double and triple hugs to you! He is one lucky little guy to have a mom who loves and worries so much about him. You both are going to do fine! Carly will keep you pretty busy and 2 and half hours flies by.

Jenni said...

Emily, this made my cry actual tears. Not just like, I got kinda choked up. But i have tears rolling down my right cheek on my face! This is soo tender. I also cannot believe that he is going to school. But I'm so proud of him for being so excited and doing so well in school! It's going to be SOO fun to watch him learn so much!

love you!

Paul & Ashley Justensen Family said...

I am not excited for my kids to enter school. Only one more year! I think I will be pretty emotional too!

*Stephanie Lance* said...

I can't believe that he is already big enough to go to school!! Where did that time go! Good luck with everything! That's really cute that he is so excited about it! I'm sure that makes it a little easier!! Love the picture!!

Kricket said...

I'm with you in fact, sometimes I hate school. I miss all the time I could have them home with me. I guess it is part of helping our kids become who we want them to be. Good luck. I still another week with mine at home. I better go and enjoy it!

Alifinale said...

That picture...so precious. I hope all went well for you guys. Emery loved it and I only cried twice today so I think that is pretty good.

dannygard said...

I hear ya. I had a super hard time sending Allie off. She started 3 weeks ago and I was so sad. But then, after 3 days, we decided that half day wasn't really the best fit, and transferred her to full day. It's good for her, being one of the older kids with a December birthday. Most of the kids in half day are those younger kids, like Easton. I'm sure he'll have the time of his life, and after a few days I'm sure you'll get used to it. The time will fly by. (Not the first day though!) Hang in there and just know that you are not the only one who feels anxiety about this type of thing. I didn't admit it to anyone else but now that you did, I also stayed up til like 3 am worrying about it the night before. Been sleeping soundly ever since though! :) Good luck!

Lindsay said...

That last comment was by Lindsay, logged in as Danny it would seem. :) I know you thought "wow danny is so very tender about my situation!"

Rebecca and Nick said...

What a cute picture! I do feel for you. The same way. The summer went by way too fast! At least they are loving it, right?

Emily B said...

I love that picture of you and him. I hope Easton's first day went well!

Kirk and Dynelle said...

Kids grow up too fast. Cant they just be adorable and charming forever (lets get rid of the screaming and whining). I hope his first day was fun for both of you!

Megan and Greg said...

Oh I love that pic! Man, your hair is so spunky! I don't even want to think about how I will melt down. I just left Scar for her first overnighter with the grandparents and I had a mild melt down in the car driving away. I'm fine now. How you said you've spent everyday with him. I've never been away from Scarlet more than 5 or 6 hours. And that was only a few times! It would be hard to let her go after spending 5 years with her! I'm glad you blogged about it. Tell us how it all went! Miss you!

Teresa, mom, Deitz, Aunt Dee Dee said...

Awe, congrats on Easton going to Kindergarten. Hope you did well.....it is an amazing time, watching your children grow, and change right in front of you. Good luck! Easton will be great and you'll do ok too.

Love ya all.

Carol and Bruce said...

Oh, that picture! I too, have the tears rolling down. Those were the days, I love that baby boy who is now a kindergarten boy. It went by so fast. I feel your pain but you will love watching him have so much fun and learning, enjoy it.
Love you all.

Kara said...

I just left you the world's longest comment...ERROR! Grr!!!
Anyhoo.
You have the cutest family ever.
I better get to see you when you're up this way now, though those family visits can be CRAZY.
Yep, looks like Nampa is likely a permanent place for us. We're just renting a house in Blackhawk on the north side of Nampa (and just a little too close to my parents).
Tell Kiki hello for me if you ever run in to her again!

Jill said...

Oh! Such a sweet picture! I bet your mom took it, huh? I can't imagine MY husband reaching for the camera if he stumbled upon this scene. Or does Steve get the credit?